An insight into my season of waiting for our future family


 As I write this blog I'm sat in our new kitchen in our new home. I will be sharing a blog about how the move went and maybe a few pictures, but in today's blog I want to talk about seasons God calls us into. Andy and I have been on a real journey of God preparing us for the future, and with this has come new seasons and a lot of change. It reminds me of Joshua entering the Promised Land, it took many years and a lot of preparation, but eventually God answered his promise and the Israelite's reached their destination, their home. What journey is God taking you on? Do you know what the end goal might look like? Do you need to surrender to God's plan? just some questions to think about.

I want to share with you four distinct journey's we've had to go on, and what God has taught us in those seasons.

#1 - Building a foundation

If you imagine every blessing that God gifts you it will likely come with weight, and this requires the foundations being solid. Whether that's marriage, having children, career changes, family changes etc. We need to have a rock solid base before we can start adding. For Andy and I this was our first 10 months of marriage, we were journeying through a lot of challenge, but we also were so happy to be married. God was growing us to understand that our marriage needed work and it needed to be solid, it's like from the get go we knew we were going to face challenges soon, which needed a solid ground. 

#2 - Learning that our life is not our own to control

Andy and I are planners, if I'm honest I've not met a couple who plan ahead as much as we do. At roughly 11 months into marriage my health diagnosis rocked the boat, it stopped our plans and we found ourselves in a season of confusion and a LONG season of waiting. As I write this we are still waiting and we've been married for 2 years, 3 months. We've both been on a journey and it's been filled with a lot of pain, but also a lot of joy and acceptance that our life is not our own to control. 

#3 - God started to stir our hearts for other things

This blog was birthed from this season of asking God 'what now? whilst I'm waiting, what now God?'. Andy moved careers and has been flying ahead and I'm so proud of him. We realised that God was putting pause on one area of our lives, but giving us the green light for so many other areas, and it's been a joy getting to see where he's taking us. I do want to say that this journey has not always been full of joy, there's been many questions and concerns, but we both feel so settled knowing that where we are right now is where God wants us to be, because we are here, we wouldn't be here if it wasn't God's plan.

#4 - God started to prompt us to prepare for our future blessings

I want to say this with faith, as I'm believing what I heard from God was true. I believe that when I've had my operation and recovered God is going to bless us with a child. A few months ago during a time of prayer and reading the word I felt God say to me 'I won't make you wait, you've waited long enough'. I don't know what the season will look like, but I feel confident that God will continue to be our provider. As I write this I'm almost crying, as I feel so thankful that God has listened to my aching, my longing and he knows I needed to hear this in this season of drawn out waiting. Andy and I felt prompted by God to buy our new home when we did, this is a family home, we bought it in faith that it will be filled with children in the not too distant future. This is the current season we are in and it is filled with so much excitement, but I have also learnt to hold things open handed, as delay after delay has made me realise that I can't set time frames, I need to be patient for God's timing.


I know I talk about seasons and change a lot, but it's because that's where I'm at, waiting and longing. I'm sure many of you are in the same season too and I want you to know you are not the only one going through it, and that God is always listening to your desires and your moments of aching. One thing people have asked me is 'do you find it easier as you're getting closer to your operation?'. If I'm being honest, on one hand I say yes, as I'm getting excited for this season of waiting to end. However as each month passes it's another month without pregnancy, without a baby and I'd be lying if I said that was easy. But, I trust in a God who doesn't fail on his promises, and that's what I put my hope in.


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